Where Am I?

I don’t know. I’m lost in a haze somewhere (not to mention I am freezing just like most of the rest of the people in this country) between holidays and work and whatnot (and in the end isn’t it always the whatnot that just takes up way too much of your time?) so that I’m not really sure where I am or what I’m doing or where I’m going. Yikes!

So, a random collection of thoughts, in no particular order other than when they hit my brain during my writing of this:

Item #1
Work has gotten much worse again. Lately it seems that no matter what I do or how I do it my new supervisor is not pleased with me or my work. Not only that, but he can give me no concrete suggestions on how to improve. It is clear to me he wants me gone and is doing every passive aggressive thing he can to achieve it. As soon as I can find a different position he will get what he wants. I haven’t told him that yet, but I’m sure when I announce my resignation he will celebrate.

Item #2
It helped a lot to write out my anger post (well, along with a more detailed version that I have in a more private place). It helped me let go of it and move on. Funny how no matter how long I stewed about it in my head it didn’t help, but when I finally put words to it and get them out there I could somehow let go. Somehow it helps me process things to put them in writing and reread them a few times. I don’t know why, but I’m simply happy it works.

Item #3
I have to put blinders on sometimes when it comes to W’s finances, or I would go crazy. He continues to get screwed over by Q. He put utilities and such for the house they rented in his name (can you say “stupid”?) so when she didn’t pay the bills as agreed upon he got stuck with them. The latest is a bill for more than $300 unpaid gas and electric charges. All I can do when he starts whining about it is walk away and sing silently “la la la la la la la la la la la la. . .” Of course, this stuff eats into what he can contribute toward his current living expenses. Sigh. . .

Item #4
We’re going to have snow over the next 48 hours, probably just enough to cause travel to be less than fun, possibly enough to cancel school, but not enough to cancel work. N will want to go sledding, but given the frigid temperatures being forecast there’s no way he can stay outside very long without risking frostbite. I am not looking forward to the next few days.

Item #5
In basketball news, the Illini played horribly last night. Fortunately, Iowa played even worse, and the Illini are now 2-0 in conference play. Oh my beloved Illini you are going to have to try so much harder if you expect to win when the real teams come to town. Oh, and could you try to win an away game at some point? Pretty please? If you don’t beat Indiana this weekend when you play there I may just give up on you. No, of course I would never give up on my beloved Illini, but there are times. . .