What a Weekend

In a complete and total surprise J called me on Friday morning at work. When I saw it was him on the caller id I wondered what was wrong. I thought there might be something wrong because he should have been at work. As a corrections officer in a maximum security prison he doesn't get to make personal calls at work.

Turns out he had the day off and wanted to know if I'd be available if he came up that day. I didn't even think twice before I said of course I would make myself available. We worked out logistics, and he was here right about the time I got off work. I made my excuses to W that we were having a girls night out and spent the evening with J. On Saturday morning I returned to J's motel room under the guise of attending book club.

This was the high point of my weekend. It was so different than other times we've gotten together. It was as though he had gone back and read some of our prior email exchanges and taken some of my criticisms to heart. Not only did he come here instead of me having to go to him, which was a big change in itself, he was much more aware of my needs. He spent very little time talking about his exes. He spent time on foreplay and actually gave me an orgasm (first time I have ever orgasmed with him). He listened to me.

It was wonderful and yet a little unnerving. It just isn't the way things generally are between us.

In a way it gives me hope. In another it makes me wary. Seems too good to be true... And you know what they say about things that seem too good to be true... They usually are.

Sigh...