Friday, June 27, 2008

Blog Swap!

In his never ending attempt to jump the shark, FTN is hosting a Blog Swap. Today, on various blogs you'll find guest posts from other bloggers. You'll be able to find my guest post over on A Rock Feels No Pain.

Here on Deepest Darkest Thoughts, it is my great pleasure to welcome Buttafly. Without further ado, here is her post.


Random Thoughts

So I am embarking on this new experience. Maybe this is a way to get to know different people. I seem to enjoy meeting new people- but I can't get past this "sounding lame" stage. Does everyone go through that on some sort of level, or am I a nerd and in the dark on this one?
My internet name is Buttafly32681. I just get called Butta or Buttafly. Which is fine- I've had this screen name for so long- and it came from my love of butterflies. I collect them. I'm a mother of 2 beautiful girls. Ages 2 and 4. I am a wife of 5 years and have been together with my work-a-holic for just about 9 years. For some reason I am still unable to be a stay at home mom. I actually started blogging to track my 1st pregnancy. I closed that blog a few months after she was born- and here I have been ever since. I started blogging in April after losing touch for a while. I came here to try and express how I feel with out people in my life really knowing about it. I have had these problems with being a little emotionally unstable. I have had some really great friends that have gotten me through rough times- so this was never a real issue for me. But they all have their own families and lives now.... I only see the Hubby 2 1/2 days a week and he just hasn't been able to provide the amount of emotional support that I really need. I don't feel I am failing- but going through a rough patch. We are working on this but I am having a hard time trying to de-stress and please myself. So here I am blogging again. And to be quite honest, I am not sure if I have even spoken/written about how emotionally unhappy I have been. Maybe its been a way for me to talk about everthing else- so it helps me try and work on the stress of this emotional issue that is so important to me. With out this emotional support I have found that I stay frustrated, and stress more- and the sex is not good enough. I have also had thoughts about adultry. I don't think that if it ever really came down to it that I would preform adultry, but the thought has been there. I also don't feel my mind is crazy enough to need any kind of therapist or counselor. Besides- I can hardly keep up with the house chores, kids and work- how could I find time to go tell someone else my problems.
Today we have gotten the letter from our school district saying that Big Z was accepted into the preschool. All that we have to do is provide transportation. This means that I do NOT have to pay. This will also be a start for us to possibly enter a new daycare. One that is closer and less crazy. I would get into that, but that is a whole differnt blog.
have sat here long enough and have gone into one of those "writers block" or what ever you want to call this. So I am ending this now! I hope to have future comments, and guest bloggers in the near future!!


Buttafly32681
http://www.crazylove25.blogspot.com

7 comments:

Phyllis Renée said...

Nice to meet you, Buttafly. I married a work-a-holic too, so if you ever feel like talkin you can email me anytime.

Sailor said...

Those rough patches can be killer, but a good way to start past them is to let him know you're needing more emotional support.

Lil Bit said...

Hi B'fly {how's that for another new username, lol ;)}
I ♥ butterflies, too... in fact, have an affinity for most things that fly.

Maaan, several of the guest posts I've been reading have been such nice introductory ways for the regular readers of that person's blog to meet them, and here I went and wrote about getting my period on a camping trip w/o really letting folks know a THING about me. Gah LOL (oh well...)

We all have our reasons for blogging (gosh, I've gone away from mine twice now... and then returned) and we're all human. You're not a dork & what you write isn't "lame".

Feel free to come visit me anytime - I welcome new readers/friendships. =)

Buttafly32681 said...

Phyllis I will have to take you up on your offer sometime!

Sailor This is why I mentioned that we are working on this. We realy do need the money- and he has started to chat a little more with me about his feelings this week. It's a start. I promised to be patient if he promised to support more.

lil bit I actually like B'fly! It's different than anything else anyone has tried to call me. lol.

I will be stopping by your "place" soon- Something new. :) There is 1 blogger that I am still in touch with- we started blogging together when we were both a couple months pregnant. We followed each other- and even though I had been induced a day before she was- our children had been born on the same day- just a few hours apart! It's neat.

The Silent Male said...

B'fly - this is quite an introduction. I'll be sure to stop by and at least lurk at your blog (and well, hopefully a few comments).

Buttafly32681 said...

Silent Male... let me lurk... :)

Trueself said...

Thanks Buttafly for guest blogging here, and thanks all for leaving such nice comments for my guest blogger.

This was a fun little experiment, this guest blogging thing. It's good to shake things up once in a while.