Blog Swap!

In his never ending attempt to jump the shark, FTN is hosting a Blog Swap. Today, on various blogs you'll find guest posts from other bloggers. You'll be able to find my guest post over on A Rock Feels No Pain.

Here on Deepest Darkest Thoughts, it is my great pleasure to welcome Buttafly. Without further ado, here is her post.


Random Thoughts

So I am embarking on this new experience. Maybe this is a way to get to know different people. I seem to enjoy meeting new people- but I can't get past this "sounding lame" stage. Does everyone go through that on some sort of level, or am I a nerd and in the dark on this one?
My internet name is Buttafly32681. I just get called Butta or Buttafly. Which is fine- I've had this screen name for so long- and it came from my love of butterflies. I collect them. I'm a mother of 2 beautiful girls. Ages 2 and 4. I am a wife of 5 years and have been together with my work-a-holic for just about 9 years. For some reason I am still unable to be a stay at home mom. I actually started blogging to track my 1st pregnancy. I closed that blog a few months after she was born- and here I have been ever since. I started blogging in April after losing touch for a while. I came here to try and express how I feel with out people in my life really knowing about it. I have had these problems with being a little emotionally unstable. I have had some really great friends that have gotten me through rough times- so this was never a real issue for me. But they all have their own families and lives now.... I only see the Hubby 2 1/2 days a week and he just hasn't been able to provide the amount of emotional support that I really need. I don't feel I am failing- but going through a rough patch. We are working on this but I am having a hard time trying to de-stress and please myself. So here I am blogging again. And to be quite honest, I am not sure if I have even spoken/written about how emotionally unhappy I have been. Maybe its been a way for me to talk about everthing else- so it helps me try and work on the stress of this emotional issue that is so important to me. With out this emotional support I have found that I stay frustrated, and stress more- and the sex is not good enough. I have also had thoughts about adultry. I don't think that if it ever really came down to it that I would preform adultry, but the thought has been there. I also don't feel my mind is crazy enough to need any kind of therapist or counselor. Besides- I can hardly keep up with the house chores, kids and work- how could I find time to go tell someone else my problems.
Today we have gotten the letter from our school district saying that Big Z was accepted into the preschool. All that we have to do is provide transportation. This means that I do NOT have to pay. This will also be a start for us to possibly enter a new daycare. One that is closer and less crazy. I would get into that, but that is a whole differnt blog.
have sat here long enough and have gone into one of those "writers block" or what ever you want to call this. So I am ending this now! I hope to have future comments, and guest bloggers in the near future!!


Buttafly32681
http://www.crazylove25.blogspot.com