Thank goodness I see Freud today instead of the usual Wednesday (thanks Thanksgiving for making this shift necessary long in advance before I knew what a state I'd be in today).
J is playing me. J is playing me really, really well. Even though I can see he's playing me I am hanging in there. I hang in because J gives me jussssssssssssst enough to make me delude myself that there's a chance. Oh yes, J is playing me like a well tuned fiddle, and I keep letting it happen.
And now... now I'm starting to have stalkerish thoughts about J. C'mon Trueself, do not turn into a stalker. Do not go that crazy. Given that J is a corrections officer and knows how to deal with scary criminal types, I really do not need to go all stalkerish crazy on him. Really bad idea. Really bad...
Since Friday night, I have thought of nothing except what I want to talk to Freud about today. Too bad we only have an hour...
Monday, November 19, 2012
Let Us Give Thanks
Labels:
Adultery,
Hate,
Insecurity,
J,
Love,
Mental Health,
Sex,
Sleepless Nights,
Stupidity,
Tears
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What IS it about my friends picking losers?!?!?
(My friend L is dating an ex-con who was...a corrupt cop! Hey, I'm all for second chances, reform & repentance, but this guy gives off some Bad Vibes...)
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