Bringing Things Up to Date

Last Friday afternoon, I decided to call J again. My fear was that maybe he had sent an email response and I hadn't gotten it due to the firewall or spam filter on the company email system. I called him from a payphone on my way home from work. He answered after several rings. I asked him if he'd gotten my email. He said yes and asked if I'd gotten his reply. No, I told him, I hadn't. I asked him to tell me what it said. He said that he had turned down my offer for Saturday for the following reasons:

1. Two hours wasn't a very long time to have together.
2. It would be a long drive (a little more than two hours each way) for such a small amount of time together.
3. Meeting at my house seemed risky.
4. J didn't particularly want W to murder him. (Oh right, like that was going to happen.)

I was disappointed, but I told him I understood and had to go because I was due at home.

When I got to work on Monday morning this email awaited me:

Trueself,

Just seeing if this got to you.... Don't know why the other one didn't. You can let me know if this did get to you.

Love,
J

Here is my reply:

J,

Yes, this one got to me. I don't know either why the other one didn't.

Oh, well. Turns out it was a very good thing that you said no to Saturday. W's daughter and son-in-law arrived unexpectedly on Friday night and left on Saturday which would have made it impossible for you and me to be together that day.
I really am going to try and live up to my agreement with W and not contact you (we'll see how long that lasts). If you are ever curious about what I'm up to you can check out my blog at www.[my regular blog, not this one].blogspot.com.

And one last request. Please let me know when (I know it will be when, not if) you and T get back together. That way I'll know for sure that the door is really closed. Thanks.

Love,
Trueself

I really am trying to let go of all of this. I really am. Except for seriously checking out www.alibinetwork.com yesterday. Still scheming. . .