Monday, January 01, 2007

Fuck You 2007

Crap. I had a really negative, nasty post written, and I accidentally deleted it. The following is probably not nearly as ascerbic as the original

I am starting the new year in a funk. It may be caused, or at least helped along, by side effects of a new medication I'm taking, but I'm not sure. What I do know is that I'm touchy, and angry, and antisocial, and just generally grumpy. I want everyone to leave me alone. I want everyone to shut up. I want everyone to just go away.

I need such an attitude adjustment right now. Even the thing that generally provides me with comfort and happiness, chatting online with BJ, was not good last night. Or I should say I was not good last night. I was a bitch. I was touchy. I finally realized how awful I was being and told him I better chat another time.

N spent the night with my parents so at least he has been spared most of my yucky mood. W is still in the house and has said nothing about when, or even if, he will be leaving. Go away W! Go away! Now if I could just say that to his face.

Oh, and by the way, Happy New Year.


Serenity said...

It can be done, that's really all i can say, hon. Change can happen.
Happy New Year.

All of her Secrets said...

Gosh..we were in the same mood yesterday! Serentiy is right..I'm truly beginning to believe her that change can happen..we just have to move forward and make it happen no matter how painful and hard it maybe. Happy New Year!

BJ said...

Happy New Year baby.


trueself said...

Thank you, thank you, and thank you, all three of you for all your support and kind words.

And thank you especially, BJ, for letting me have my little snit last night.

Fiona said...

I found recently TS, that how 'he' handles us when we feel that way, tells us an awful lot about him.

Seems BJ and my love are similar in that they accept even this part of us.

Tis a good thing!!!

I hope you feel better soon and that your goals become milestones you reach and pass in 2007.

trueself said...

Yes, Fiona, BJ accepts me even when I'm in a snit, and it is, indeed, a wonderful thing. He understands the hurts I'm going through and supports me more than I could ever expect. He's a keeper.

Anonymous said...

we all have those moments or hours or days or weeks. Hugs Sweetie and it will get better.