Wednesday, February 07, 2007
What is There to Say?
Not much. Life is busy this week. No work, or rather no job, plenty of work. Packing to move. Already spent one day moving stuff to the new place. Buying necessities to set up housekeeping. Attended counseling with W last night. He now agrees we need to spend the next few months apart. I told him flat out that if I were to agree to stay with him I would be setting aside my happiness to fulfill my obligations. We're going to take some time to see if either of us can be happy that way, or if either of us can change enough so it isn't that way. I don't think we stand a chance in hell, but damn I have such a hard time walking away particularly when he reiterated to me that if we split he will not stay in this part of the country and won't be a regular part of N's life. Damn him for holding that over me. Tomorrow I head headlong into the future. I will be driving to my new place. On Friday, I get to wait for the cable and phone (yes, even phone phobics have to have phones) guys to show up to connect me to the rest of the world. Plus I have to drop by the new employer for a bit that day. So there's lots to do, lots and lots to do this week.
Oh, did I mention that BJ is spending the weekend with me? No? Well, he is. My bright spot in this hectic week. At least I'll be able to start my new job with a smile on my face after a weekend with BJ.