Thursday, March 13, 2008

Only 72 Days In

Only 72 days into Blog 365, and I blew it. I knew I was blowing it last night. I intended to post in the evening after dinner. I didn’t intend to get sick to my stomach over dinner, but I did. So I went to bed immediately after dinner. Yes, it was only around 8:30 or so. No, I didn’t immediately go to sleep. Yes, I was miserable. No, I didn’t throw up. I hate throwing up and will involuntarily fight against throwing up. I thought last night that I would have felt ever so much better if I could just throw up and get it all out, but I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. I’m still not feeling great today, but I’m taking things easy and not really eating much, just drinking clear liquids for now. I really think my only problem was overeating yesterday due to a combination of stresses that triggered a binge pattern. Dang it, I was doing so well. Ah well, if you fall off the horse you just get back in the saddle and try to ride again. Today I’m climbing back on the healthy eating horse instead of the binging horse.

And maybe, just maybe, I’ll post a real post later today.


Bunny said...

I know all about stress eating, unfortunately. I usually go ahead and let/make myself throw up in those situations, because it feels so much better afterward. I hate that nauseous feeling.

Hope you feel better today.

Anonymous said...

Hope you're feeling better.

Anonymous said...

On Blog 365, I knew I couldn't do the challenge, so I didn't even try. I think it says something about you for being willing to take on a difficult task (I think it says something good).

I hope you are feeling better.

Trueself said...

Thanks all for your concern. Yes, I'm feeling much better.

SM - I'm glad you think it says something good. I was thinking maybe it said I'm insane!