Tuesday, March 25, 2008
This is Hard
W will be moving out a week from today. I should be overjoyed. This is what I wanted. So why am I feeling so sad about all this? Why have I been flooded with tears and emotional outbursts? Guess you just don't throw away a 20+ year relationship easily.
At least my counselor is helping me get through it. She is so wonderful at understanding what I'm trying to say even when I struggle to put the words together. She can take my fragments and say back to me a perfectly coherent and insightful understanding of what it is I am thinking. She is even going to have an extra session with me this week. It sounds like W is not going to continue with her, but I need some support from somewhere. I feel a little lost and a little shell shocked by all of this. These emotions kind of sneaked up on me and took me by surprise. At least I've developed a little network of friends not to mention my online friends whom I appreciate more than you can imagine.
Anybody wanna come over and drink wine with me next Tuesday night as I alternately celebrate and mourn W moving out?