Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Alphabet Soup

I started this blog substituting letters, often initials, for names of people mentioned in this blog to provide some level of anonymity. So when I embarked on a relationship with someone else with a blog, but was unsure how he would feel about us being open in the blogosphere about our relationship I made up a letter for him, Z. But now it seems silly to keep using this letter for BJ because it is quite open that BJ is BJ so I'm retiring Z and henceforth will refer to BJ as BJ.

BJ and I are falling for each other, in a big way. This is not at all what I expected to happen, not at all. I was definitely not looking for this. Yet, here it is. I've found a man with whom I share similar opinions on so much in terms of outlook on life, politics, religion, sex. Of course, we don't agree on everything. He roots for the wrong teams in many sports, but I think we can get past that. We have yet to meet in person, but we will, soon. One advantage to meeting the way we did is that we did not jump immediately into bed with one another but got to know one another on a deeper, more meaningful level. We talk for hours every day about everything. No topic is off limits. I'm not sure what it will be like to meet BJ in person, having never known this much about someone before meeting them face to face.

Now you just need to figure out which of the countdowns on the right is the countdown to BJ and me meeting.


BJ said...

That bj character sounds like one lucky fella.


trueself said...

Actually, I think I'm the lucky one.

Truth be told, we'll both be getting lucky soon. . . . . . . . .


Anonymous said...

I have been exactly where you are. exciting but oh so scary. I wish you well.

Karin's Korner said...

I came across your blog one day last week and read it from beginning to end. We are so similar that it sometimes scares me. I was also married (although not happily) when I met my now husband online. We lived in different states so all we could do was talk, and talk we did. First in instant messages, then finally on the telephone. We used to play a game that we called "Tell me something I don't know about you", Sitting back now we try and play that game, it does not work, we know everything about each other, the good and the bad. And you know what, he still loves me with everything that he is and I love him more then I ever thought I could love a person. We also have something we call "Total Honesty", so even if it hurts, we will NOT lie to one another, we must always be totally honest (of coarse if it is Christmas or a birthday it does not count). We lived together for a year and have been married for a little more then 4 years, I am being totally honest when I tell you that they have been the best 4 years of my life. It was very hard to leave my husband and please don't think I would try and steer you that way, you have to ask yourself as I asked myself "When is it MY turn to be happy?" and if the answer is NOW, then it is what it is. Good Luck to you and God Bless.

Emily said...

If you are working mainly on yourself and self-reliance, maybe there should be another counter for those? X many days for getting your own apartment, for instance.

trueself said...

Thanks for the good wishes. I took a look at your blog and am sure I'll be visiting it regularly as we do have certain similarities.

Wow, read the whole sordid mess did you? Well, glad you're here. Yes, I have been asking a lot that very question, "When is it MY turn to be happy?" I'm hoping it is now.

Good point. Although I speak of my #1 & #2 priorities I do seem to be focusing more on #3. Thanks for the nudge.