Saturday, September 23, 2006

Quick Little Blue Pill Update

When I was getting something for a headache, I noticed that W only has 3 little blue pills left. He started with 6. He hasn't used any for any activity with me. Wonder what happened to those other 3 pills? Hmmmmm. . . . . . . . . . .

Not that I care that much, except when it comes to divorce proceedings I won't feel nearly as guilty if I knew he had somebody else waiting for him.

9 comments:

BJ said...

That's odd. You don't just take those things any old time. Maybe he does have someone else.

Mr. Husbland said...

Wow, sorry you found this out. :( I'm sure it still hurts nonetheless.

He seemed so to be so careful about them too.

Emily said...

Maybe he is trying to figure out if they work before trying them with you?

trueself said...

BJ & Mr. H,
Well, I think the handwriting is on the wall, and I had already made the decision to leave anyway. It's just one more of a series of signs I should have put together before -- finding out about a prepaid cell phone he hadn't told me about, having his days free and not always being able to account well for his whereabouts, and now the missing pills. I think it's time to move on just as I had decided anyway.

Emily,
I think yours is probably a pollyanna view of the situation. For a guy who insists we only use them for special occasions to use 3 of them for testing just doesn't seem to add up.
But thanks for trying.

freebird said...

Hi trueself. Loads of thoughts but if you're going to call Emily 'Pollyanna' I daren't speak!

trueself said...

Freebird,
Feel free to share your thoughts. I still think it is naive to think that he used 3 pills as tests, but I'll be gentle with you about any thoughts you wish to share.

Emily said...

Ah, well, I have a big investment in believing that an older man and younger woman with illness/sex issues and a child can still make it!

I am actually finding the way this is all coming out pretty sad, as there has been quite a lot of evidence all along that you do still have love for your husband and he still has love for you.

I think you could still get through this as a couple and as parents, but it sounds like you have decided to leave, regardless of what he does.

oldbear said...

Might he have been using the viagra to masterbate?

trueself said...

oldbear,
Yes, he might. Although I will say that he has always claimed to see masturbation as a waste of a good hard-on.
I suppose if I really wanted to I could just ask him what happened to them. He might even choose to tell the truth, whatever the truth may be. Or he might choose to lie, and I would have no reliable way to know the difference. Do he and I have a history of being honest with one another? No. Any reason to think we would start now? No.