Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Anybody Got a Spare One of These Around?
Yes, that would be a backbone, a spine, the thing that I seem to not have when it comes to dealing with the issues at hand. I caved. . . again. . . I admitted in counseling tonight that I'm tempted to just give up, give in and agree to stay just to keep the peace, just to not hurt W more, just to not have to deal with it anymore by closing my eyes, shutting up and hanging in there.
WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING?
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?
Jello has a firmer backbone than I have.
Back to the deep dark pit of self pity. . .