Sunday, November 26, 2006

I've Really Got to Stop Reading These

Today's horoscope:

Your legendary stubbornness [Who? Me? Stubborn?] can get the best of you today if you don't pay attention to the warning signs. [Okay, okay, so I see the warning signs. Yes I do. Very clearly. What of it?]

Be aware of how you get emotionally worked up while defending your position or arguing your point of view. [Again, who are we talking about here? Me? Just because this afternoon I've cried and been angry and pouted and just generally gotten emotionally worked up and the only person I've been arguing with or defending my position to is myself?]

Stop long enough to consider what is truly at stake. [What is at stake? What is at stake? EVERYTHING. That's what. My future. N's future. W's future. BJ's future. The future of poor unsuspecting men everywhere if I were to end up alone.]

Your conclusions can help you decide if you need to hold your current posture or if you can benefit by letting it go. [Grumble, grumble, grumble. Letting go? Letting go? Hell's bells, why on earth would I want to let it go? Where would all the drama go? How could I stay in my "poor me" attitude if I let go? Wait a minute. Is that my current posture? Poor me? Poor me?!? WTF am I thinking? Of course I need to let go of the whole "poor me" routine. Nobody is ever going to love me if all I am is a poor little girl in need of rescue! Oh fine, so I'll let it go. I won't like it, but I'll try to let it go.]

Don't ever let anyone tell you that blogging isn't therapeutic or that horoscopes are bunk. Even if they are so general they could apply to just about anyone they can lead to actual thought processes occurring just as you have witnessed here today.


Me said...

Blogging does feel therapeutic - but it also feels a little lonely. I feel like I am talking to myself - like no one is out there. Which they may not be, yet. That isn't a big deal though, I just have no one I can talk to about these issues in real is sad and scary at the same time.

trueself said...

If you ever need somebody talk to me. I'm as close as my email address in my profile. I understand the sad and scary. I feel the same way. You aren't alone. I'm here and happy to reach out to you anytime.

Me said...

Thanks. Do you think you'll miss W? I never thought I would so much. It has been a year and I am just now feeling how hard the loss of my ex is going to be on me. It is sudden and unexpected. Even though I know I did it all for the right reasons, and I am so much happier now, I am still sad.

trueself said...

Yes, I believe I will miss W. I've spent more than 20 years of my life with him, and as frustrated as I am and as sure as I am that we should no longer be together, I am just as sure that I will miss him. I wish there were a way that I could continue to take care of him some but have the freedom to have my own life. That, however, is impossible. So yes, I completely understand being so much happier yet still sad. I think it will be the same for me.