Busted!

Well, getting back to my bi side one of the two women on whom I have a crush totally busted me for it today. She sent me an email point blank asking if I have a crush on her. I’m sure this comes from something I said on the group’s message board. Even though I didn’t name any names I mentioned that I had a couple of crushes that were not returned. I’m pretty sure she put that together with some other things to come up with the right conclusion.

Now I am mortified. I did not want to jeopardize the friendship we were forming by giving away how I felt because she has always been pretty plain about us just being friends. I have not responded to her email yet. I need time to think of what to say. I have to address it somehow because I’m already scheduled for her to cut and color my hair this weekend. Awkward does not begin to describe how I’m feeling here.

Being the overreactionary (okay, probably not a real word but deal with it) type, my first thought was to withdraw. Withdraw from her. Withdraw from the bi group. Withdraw into my little psychic shell that I maintain around me for just such times of discomfort. Isolate myself once again from the world.

So here I was at lunchtime sitting in my family room crying over my laptop without a good explanation to W so I just told him all of the above. He gave me his suggestions about how to respond to her. They were pretty good suggestions. He has been very supportive of my relationship with her, has met her and likes her and even approves of her as a girlfriend for me if it were to go that way. Sometimes he’s not half bad.

Crap. There goes life spinning out of control again.


Okay, so you remember how two posts down, just a few hours ago, I said it was going to be a good day? Well, scratch that. It's not. Not by a long shot.