Sunday, October 28, 2007

Turn Around


BJ has had a change of heart apparently. He wants me. He wants me enough to work with me on our relationship. He wants to commit 100% to our relationship.

The skeptic in me wonders if it is real. The hopeful me wants very much for it to be real.

My plan now is to go spend next weekend with him, ask some questions, and listen carefully and critically to his answers.

I wonder if he has had anywhere near as many people contacting him to give him opinions and advice on this relationship as I have. I wonder how he came to this decision. I wonder. . .


Uhave said...

I read somewhere recently that women should not pay attention to what men say and really pay attention to what they do.
Even as I say this, I still cannot make myself actually do it.

Serenity said...

Wonder all you want but what does your gut instinct tell you? What's going to make you feel good, what would make you feel used?
Because my opinion is worth shite, and any opinions he's been given are worth shite. This is between the two of you.
But he likely came to this decision thinking with his little head, not his big one.

Trueself said...

Uhave - That's one reason I want to go spend the weekend with him, to see if the actions reflect the words.

Serenity - My gut tells me he is sincere, but I will really get a better feel for it in person I think.

BJ said...

I came to this all on my own.

Fiona said...

No opinion, no comment should sway you from whatever path YOU decide. It's your life TS and only you are living it.

I've seen a lot of people tell you not to see BJ, to move on. Only you can, and should, make that decision because it's one you will live with for the rest of your life, no matter which way you go, or what it all turns into.

Own your decisions, own your life.

And good luck :)

Trueself said...

BJ - I was just curious. I have wondered what some of your friends have thought of me and what their opinions would be on whether or not I am a good thing for you.

Fiona - Yes, I intend to own my decisions and my life. Obviously, I don't blindly follow opinions given to me by goodness-only-knows-who from the fantasy world of Blogland. I will admit, however, to reading the comments and emails, and listening to the voicemails, with interest. Occasionally, something someone says will make me stop and look at something from a different perspective, see things in a different light than before, but I make my decisions. I own my decisions, for good or for bad. I would never come back and blame anyone but myself for my decisions. (as tempting as it might be sometimes!)

What you realize that I think some readers do not, is that what you read here is but a portion of my thoughts, the portion that I willingly share on the blog. Therefore, I know that any advice given to me here is of limited value for it is based on limited knowledge. Only BJ and I know what our relationship truly is. Only BJ and I can truly make decisions about us.

freebird said...

I'll go along with what you've said just there, TS.
I would just love you to be happy. Perhaps a quick glance at some wise words I posted yesterday might be of some value (not mine of course - as if!).
(Apologies to any folks without the key.)

Trueself said...

FB - Yes, I perused those wise words on your blog and will try to take them to heart. May you and I both find the happiness we are seeking.