Friday, September 21, 2007

Wishing for What I Don't Have

No, I don't even mean what you think I mean in the title.

What I'm wishing for right now is someone who would stay by my side and talk me down every time I get into my head that I need to contact BJ. Like right now, I am so terribly tempted to call him to find out how things went this morning. I want to know how he's doing, and that he's okay. Okay, fine, I just wanna talk to him, okay? Fine, I know it isn't the right thing to do. Fine. Fine. That's why I wish I had someone here to slap me every time that thought comes into my head and then help me refocus onto something else -- like work! Fine. Returning to work now. Really. Not thinking about him anymore this afternoon. Really. Fine. It's fine. It's all fine.

5 comments:

freebird said...

Oh! That's funny, I need one of those too. Tell you what... whenever you weaken, think of me slapping and refocusing you, and whenever I do I'll think of you doing same!

Bunny said...

I am just aching for you. Wish I could say something, anything, to make it better. It's almost too hard when you remain friends, would be easier if you could just hate him and be done with it.
{{{YOU}}}

Unspoken Drama said...

I know exactly where you are coming from...maybe we should put in some system where we call each other when we feel that mood strike. I'm up for it if you are...email me and I'm happy to give you my phone number. Seriously!

Drama

Jaded Bunny said...

Ever hear of...

"He's Just Not That Into You."

???

Trueself said...

FB - Alrighty, but I just might not appreciate the number of times you slap me! LOL

Bunny - Thank you. I will always accept as many hugs as possible.

Drama - I do believe you'll be getting an email soon from me. Sounds like a darn good plan.

JB - Yep, doesn't ease the pain but I've got to accept it.