Due to lack of vacation time available to me I had to be back at work on this day in spite of the harrowing three days prior and not getting to bed until 1:00 a.m. the night before. The alarm rang at 6:00. It rang again at 6:09, and every nine minutes thereafter for an hour. I finally got up at 7:30 and made quick work of showering and dressing and arrived at work only 15 minutes late. Fortunately, they’re not sticklers about things like that at work. I was present at work for the whole day but can’t honestly say much work was accomplished. I was exhausted. There was a home game for the Illini basketball team that night, but I bowed out of going choosing instead to get to bed early.
What I Learned From This Trip
- I am capable of dealing with stressful situations.
- I am capable of driving safely in snowy icy conditions.
- I am capable of speaking to customer service people in effective ways to handle problems.
- I am capable of being in charge.
- I am capable of persevering.
- I am capable of allowing others to help me when I need help.
- I AM CAPABLE.
Who knew? I kind of sat back at one point late in the trip and took stock and realized that overall I handled things very well. I am proud of myself for that. I did what needed to be done, never gave up, and things turned out okay even if they didn’t turn out as originally planned. I also realized it is not a failure on my part that I did not handle every aspect of the situation. I didn’t have to do so. There were two adults involved, and I didn’t have to do it all. It was alright to allow W to handle certain aspects of the situation. I realized that I feel like a failure every time I ask him to make a phone call, but even without the phone phobia there is no reason I would have to make every phone call. I made some. He made some. Nothing wrong with that. When I really look at it I realize that I am no less capable because I don’t do it all. I don’t have to do it all to be capable. What a revelation.
Truly I believe every experience in life is there to teach us something. Sometimes we’re just lucky enough to actually learn the lesson.